Monday, December 31, 2012

The Year 2012

An ode to the year gone, where 'ode to' means 'much abbreviated analysis of'.

I travelled to Canberra, met new people, had a great time. The first few months were awesome. I conducted, wrote music, helped direct some kids in Lord of the Rings, and played hacky sack. My artistic skills were being used more than ever before. I learnt about Steiner and his philosophies for teaching - an introduction. Visited the National Gallery, the National Library and jammed with some jazz guys at ANU.

 Then we travelled around Australia, 21 of us, teaching in schools, driving everywhere, and that was awesome too. I was in an accident though - a truck sideswiped our van coming over a bridge. Nobody was hurt, but my friend who owns the van was extremely upset. Sadly, the van, which had been her home for years, wasn't salvageable. Over the year, my relationship with my girlfriend suffered. We kept in touch and kept trying. The tour ended in the tiny NSW town of Uki (yoo-kye, rhymes with pie) where the school had only about 50 kids, or some such tiny number. I could see Mount Warning from my hosts' house.

Then the choir went overseas! First stop Taiwan. Wow, travelling with musicians, being hosted by local families, strict schedules of performances and teaching grade 1 and 2's, scenery and activities, everything new and interesting. And tiring! By the time we got to Beijing, everyone was tired and/or sick. That's where Mags and I went on a break. Later, she sent me an email saying she didn't want to get back together. The tour continued in Russia, 3 days of train travel to Moscow, then Europe. After Russia, Europe was welcome, a little less scary without angry train guards. Latvia was full of beautiful food and the capital city was my first experience of a European 'old town' - usually found in the city centre. Estonia was a wonderful experience, the language, lovely people, the culture that has survived years of oppression by various other countries. Finland, astonishing architecture of St. Petersburg, choirs galore in a 'Singing World' choir festival, Germany, Autobahns! Then the stunning mountains of Austria, passed through them on our way to Lake Balaton in Hungary. We stayed there for a while, rehearsing and preparing for the hectic performances we had coming up, re-working the Ring Bearer play (LOTR) and perfecting our choir pieces. Here, I finally revealed to the choir my secret project of making a piece for everyone. Some enthusiastic people started to sing them. Budapest, one of my favourite cities of the tour, and a heaven-sent week rehearsing with an inspiring conductor of a Waldorf choir. He made me think strongly about the way I was singing. He made each note important, every nuance crucial. Also, his choir was heaps of fun! Venice - could've spent ages in Venice, canals, bridges, tiny shops. Driving through Italy, one hairy moment when a truck tried to merge in front of me without looking. Almost had a heart attack, but he acknowledged his mistake as I drove past. Drove into Switzerland across the mountains. A week teaching year 10s and 11s, sleeping in the classrooms. A week in Germany teaching workshops - finally, my years of German study were used!! Discovered that I have much more German to learn... our hosts were awesome and clicked perfectly. Another week in Switzerland, sleeping in a yurt in the front yard. Then finally - the week off! Like every good road trip, loaded the car with awesome people, great music, drove through Geneva and into France. Stayed a few days in the peaceful TaizĂ© monastery. Drove through France with no co-driver, making some 8-hour days of driving for me. Medieval Carcassone, walled city of wonder, then the Camino trail into Spain, walking around 24 kms every day, then ferrying the cars back and forth each night to catch up with us. No wonder I was exhausted... finally arrived in Pamplona in the middle of a wild festival celebration with loud crackers going off every 30 seconds, brass bands, people everywhere, cute streets and wide alleys. A couple more cities in Spain, Bilbao and San Sebastian. According to the local people, this area is Basque, not Spanish. The Basque want independence from Spain.  A magnificent concert in Bilbao, one of our best ever. Driving through France again to Cherbourg, where the ferry workers were on strike. Most of the choir made it to England except the four drivers, who had to return the cars. We had an extended stay in the picturesque French seaside town Roscoff. Poor us! We languished there awhile, with our red wine and our hotel rooms, until the ferry to England could be managed. England shocked me in so many ways, mostly the crazy hedgerow lanes which the locals would zoom along as though nobody could possibly be coming the other way! New cars in England - I drew the short straw for the luggage van, but it wasn't so bad. Having only one person to talk to was a nice change from six! Staying in Totnes we saw Dartmoor, I had a professional massage for my hard work driving on the Camino, and we spent time rehearsing my pieces for performance in York..... on the way to York, we visited the astounding Wells Cathedral. And in York - the WORLD PREMIERE of my choir piece, Night Walk, and four of the name pieces... I could've died with happiness! Kids loved us at this school. I met a guy from Bendigo living in York... stayed with a friendly teacher named Helen. Two days driving North took us to Kirkwall, in the Orkney Islands, Scotland - incredible scenery, almost no trees, windy, cold, sea all around, heather and heath, peat bogs, ancient civilisations (5000 years old!) ... and small but appreciative audiences. And Scottish accents. A divine week staying in a house with no hosts, myself and 3 others cooking and looking after ourselves for once... driving back to Heathrow airport we passed through the quaint town of Berwick-Upon-Tweed by the sea, could have spent longer there. Well finally England was done and we flew to India for two weeks. The noise! The car horns! The bikes, the tuk-tuks, the colours! The spices! A delightful week teaching recorder in Bangalore with Dutch hosts, the local school small and dirty, but enthusiastic and fun kids. Best train trip ever North to Hyderabad (fearing the worst) where we had entree, mains, and dessert presented to us without expecting any such thing. Hyderabad, our last stop for the tour. We stayed in deceptively luxury-looking houses, which turned out to have sporadic water and electricity services - 3 days without a shower was pretty rough! My most intensive teaching week of the year, I taught a minimum of 4 classes every day, including singing, recorder, music theory, and two improvisation classes. Rohan bought some proper fireworks at a market which he let off on the last couple of nights. They were huge! And impressive! Everyone was really worn down in the last week, it was stressful and horrible sometimes, but for me, I was on a high teaching these classes I really enjoyed, and I got great feedback from people in the classes telling me how good they were. On the last night, a massive performance of The Ring Bearer to an auditorium which could hold up to 2000 people (probably about 600 attended) cemented a successful week and year.

Leaving India was painful, a series of goodbyes as we farewelled some choir members staying longer in India, then some people left us in Kuala Lumpur, then everyone else parted ways in Sydney. I made my way home to Melbourne, came home with Dad to Kangaroo Flat...
...and have been here since.

November and December have passed quickly. Catching up with friends, family, Christmas cards, cleaning my room, composing, thinking, doing chores for my parents, one of my bands did an album launch in Melbourne which I played at. Trying to keep fit, trying to keep in touch with various people. Life. You know.

For me, it's been a great year. It's given me a lot to look forward to and countless experiences I can treasure forever. But I think a drawn-out breakup across 5 countries took its toll, as did a year of working with people who weren't completely satisfied with their decision to come on tour, not to mention a brilliant but often stressful director, who told us at the end of the tour how difficult she found us to work with. She certainly had a mammoth task, and I'm glad it wasn't me doing all the organising.


Well, goodbye, 2012. You weren't the end of the world. And hopefully, you were the start of new and exciting things in my life. I'll miss you, a bit.

Life in Kangaroo Flat

Hello.

So Christmas 2012 came and went, and was fine. Since I wrote that last post I've actually made some decent progress on the symphony, although I'm still only up to the first movement... but it's gathering momentum towards the GFC! I can sense it. So Doug heard what I've done and likes it, I think. He maybe wants a bit more tension, but the music is still happening before the market crash, when the public didn't really know anything was wrong. So I think the light-hearted mood of making money is fitting.

Then, CRASH!

And more progress has been made on these name pieces, for the Wayfarers. I'm starting to type up the tricky ones, record some using my own voice (singing bass and soprano parts is hard!), and finishing off the last ones in my notebook. I pretty much finished another one two nights ago - have to have another look at it and see if I like the ending.  There are only 5 to go now, bar my own. Yayy!! I love them so much. They are like these beautiful little gems, all different, all really interesting and pretty. That works as a metaphor for the people too, although of course people aren't perfect.... but then neither are my pieces :P I'm just really happy about how they're going to sound, and I can't wait to have them sung by a choir.

Which incidentally, should be happening around February 2014. The director of Wayfarers has told me she wants to perform a concert of MY MUSIC. Just mine! No-one else's! Staggering. And exciting.

I haven't worked on my piano/voice pieces, much. I've started compiling a list of my repertoire, and it's small, and needs polishing. So I need to write more pieces and make the ones I have performable. The symphony has been taking priority... along with my room.

People don't think cleaning my room should take as long as it's taking. It's most likely true. But tough, that's the way I'm doing it! I'm working through methodically, making progress, and there's still a long way to go. I think it'll get easier as I get to each new box and go 'another box of THIS stuff?' For now, I'm just kind of observing what I have, and how much of it I have. Yeah yeah, I'm chucking stuff out too. But I'll probably throw out more when I know what there is. Know what I mean? Having one shelf of books is fine, but then when I get to three more boxes of books, suddenly there are too many damn books, and I need to cull.


Mmm, I need to CULL. to CULLLL.... I really do. And I am! And I shall. Hurrah. Then I can stop worrying about all the primary school workbooks and scrapbooks I 'still have sitting back at home' because... they won't be there!


Also, I've been watching a lot of TV. Surprisingly. My parents recorded the Olympics opening ceremony, which I missed whilst overseas. Doc Martin. Spooks. Whose Line Is It Anyway? Hogfather (good adaptation of the book, but horrifically long and slow). Redfern Now (great show). Wallander. Merlin - unsurprisingly I guess, given there's a character named after me.... however. I've really been missing Naruto, and Star Trek: TNG. I'm up to season 4 of TNG, could get it out from the local vid store. But I have to wait to watch Naruto, because I've been watching it with a friend. So I'm desperately trying to avoid spoilers which keep popping up whenever I see new mangas of the series... or episodes....aagh!!

Emotionally, I thought I was fine, but I've recently discovered I feel insecure and depressed again when I'm on my own. Clearly, no matter how much I like my own space, I still need... well, whatever you want to call it. Romance, love, hugs. People. That stings. I want to be able to live life on my own terms. Not to need contact - to be able to go it alone. Well, I could. The question is whether it would ever happen. I doubt it. I like love.

Now seems as good a time as any to dissect the year. It's the last day, after all.

It's long. I'll make it a new post.

So yeah. That's life in Kangaroo Flat.

Monday, November 19, 2012

Composition

OK, someone requested that I write about this piece I've been commissioned to write, so I'll do that.
As an aside, I've been thinking what it'd be like to have a Twitter account (but not actually considering getting one - heaven forfend!)... through the day, I often come up with phrases, or a concept, or a thought I want to share. The problem I have with Tweeter is that if you're in the mindset of posting often, there's the potential for more trash to seep through. I guess it's okay for people who are perpetually inventive. (Don't know whether I'm in that category.)
In any case I like blogging because it (theoretically) allows for more considered writing. Although stupidly, I don't really plan that much at all... I just go 'oh, I haven't blogged in a while' and I get on here and write something down quick and post it. But I guess there's a difference between blogging and writing a book, as well.
They're all points on the spectrum. In the end, the kind of blogging I do is like today's news. Here today, and gone tomorrow. Except if I post something more meaningful.

Which I may do now.

Christmas 2006, Geelong.
Doug: Gawain, I want to get you to write a piece for my company, Professional Wealth. It'll be the Professional Wealth Symphony.
Gawain: (laughing, not entirely serious) Well, I don't know. I'm more kind of writing songs at the moment.

Doug's 40th Birthday.
Gawain: I wrote a song for your birthday, Doug. It's not finished but I can play you what I have.
Doug: Sure.
G: (sings) Doug, you are forty, and now you're a man. Well maybe you were before. What age can't destroy, your hot water bill can, and nothing is new anymore.
G: uh... that's all I have at this stage.
D: (laughs) well that's great Gawain. But what I really want to hear is that Professional Wealth symphony.
G: (nervous laugh) Yeah.

Christmas 2010, Geelong.
Gawain is working part-time at Melbourne University Library and teaching a few students, but generally has a low income and lots of free time.
D: I don't think this Professional Wealth piece is ever going to be finished, is it Gawain? What's it going to take for you to finish it?
G: (thinking as a jobless musician) Well..... you could pay my rent for a month.
D: ...Okay then. How much is that?
G: (paying more attention) Wait what? You'd do that?
D: Well sure, I want this piece finished.
G: Wow! Okay then. Sure thing!
D: Now I was thinking of doing a piece based on the Global Financial Crisis. It could be in three movements....

*Discussions ensue. It is decided that Doug will pay Gawain half of the money upfront and another half on completion of the project, plus a $100 bonus. Additionally, he will cover all recording costs including musicians and studio time should it be necessary.*
*The piece will be (ostensibly) about the global financial crisis (the GFC). Three movements are planned. The first movement will depict the conditions that led to the crisis. The second movement will deal with the actual crash and its immediate aftermath. The third movement will be a representation of the bitter results for many, mixed with a sense of cautious hope for the future.*

To begin with, progress on the GFC Symphony was slow, but steady. As I could have predicted, I didn't devote as much time to it as I should have, and therefore didn't meet my initial deadline of a month. However I still had time, so I kept writing. Doug has a radio spot every month, which was a motivation - imagine my piece being played on his show!
 

Later in the year, I got a full-time job, which I wasn't expecting. After working for a couple of weeks, giving myself initial time to settle in to the routine of full-time work, it became apparent that my spare time was extremely limited and I wasn't devoting enough time to finishing the composition. So time passed, with me working full-time, not writing music, and not staying in contact with my beneficiary.... what must he have thought? I was scared to be in touch again, and admit my failure. "Hi Doug... it's still not finished." Fear of my failings is perhaps one of my failings.

At the end of the standard 6 month probation period, my job told me I hadn't met enough of my weekly sales targets, and they would have to terminate my employment. Yes: it was the first time I've ever been fired. And it was hard to accept. But being let go from my job had many successful outcomes. Suddenly, I had all of 2012 before me - free, available, and there for the taking. And into the 2012 void stepped Wayfarers Australia. Which I wrote about a little bit in my travel blog (see below).

Well, I had to make a quick decision if I wanted to join the choir, because they were finalising numbers. So after a stressful decision-making process, I decided to leave my home and tour Australia and the world for a year with this choir. But before I left, there was family Christmas - which meant seeing Doug.

Christmas 2011, Geelong.
Doug: Well Gawain, how's my symphony going?
Gawain: (sweats) I can play you some of the key themes I've come up with?

D: (laughs) Okay.
G: (plays through the main themes from each movement on piano)
D: Wow Gawain, that's really cool! It's not exactly what I had in mind, but it's very good.
G: Thanks Doug. I'll keep working on it, but as I'm going away next year, I don't know how much I can get done...
D: Oh, there'll be time! On a plane... waiting for a bus... Email me your expenses.
G: (happily surprised) Thanks Doug! I'll do my best!

I took the GFC Symphony drafts with me to Canberra, where the Wayfarers met. As I looked over what I'd done of the GFC, however, I realised that I didn't want to write out ideas any more - I already had them. I wanted to start to pull ideas together. I wanted to make it into a symphony, rather than a collection of ideas. Sadly I figured I needed a computer for that. So I put off writing the GFC symphony - again. Instead, I spent the year writing choral music. Some exciting things happened. Singers liked my music. A world premiere of my choir piece 'Night Walk' in England, alongside some smaller pieces I was writing about everyone in the choir, was a huge success. People have urged me to continue composing.
Now, I'm back in Australia. I've taken a few months off to compose the GFC Symphony, and the rest of my pieces about people in the Wayfarers, and clean my room. I'm ready to go. Nothing can stop me.

But first, Christmas 2012 looms...

Monday, March 12, 2012

Travel blog

Hi folks.

This year, in case you haven't heard, I'm out of Melbourne for about 10 months, travelling with a choir. We're touring Australia (ironically, beginning with Melbourne) and then the world - Taiwan, China, Russia, Scandinavia, Britain and India.

This choir does so many different musical, dramatic and artistic activities, I don't know if I can summarise them sufficiently. Let me simply say that I'm having a fantastic time. Most of all I am enjoying the chance to do some serious and sustained composing!!

Anyways, I've started a travel blog for the year. I'll probably be just as bad at updating it as this one. But in case you're interested, click on the title of this post to go there. It's at gawain2012.blog.com and the choir's website, which has all the dates and further info, is wayfarersaustralia.org